i had a dream my life would be...so different from this hell i'm living

Okay so the title lyrics are a little dramatic, but they were the first ones that came into my head so I had to use them. I am a little disappointed though. I was so looking forward to posting a big announcement this morning but it just didn't work out. here's the story:

I am in the market to buy a house. This is huge. Me and commitment are not the best of friends and the thought of committing to moses lake, let alone a home for 30 years seemed to hard to bear. But lately I have come to grips with the fact that I really do like moses lake, and let's face it...its time to be a grown-up and plant some roots. So after talking to a lender and figuring out what I could afford and then looking at what's out there (not a whole here in moses, especially if you want to avoid some of the more "questionable" neighborhoods) I found a really cute house. So on thursday, after getting my mom's opinion, I put an offer on it......and found out this morning....I WAS OUTBID. This sucks. I'm just the kind of person who doesn't put forth a whole lot of effort into most things, or who bails when things get too complicated, so when I actually put forth effort and hopes into something and it doesn't work out it stings a little. I know the market is a tough business and I need to just get back out there...and I will. There is this other house that I kind of like, although it will take a little more work to make it my perfect house but it is cheaper so that's a plus. I am meeting with my realtor after work to see what to do from here....but I just wish I could have written a post with the title....

I'll be home for Christmas