It doesn't matter if it's boiled or fried...Just eat it, eat it, just eat it, eat it

it's weird how much time you have on your hands when food is no longer a central part of your life. for instance, while everyone else was enjoying themselves on scones, pizza, etc.. i got to take these lovely photos of people eating. i would like to say that it filled me with the same satisfaction that i used to get from food.....but not quite. sometimes i just down right miss food. i miss my big macs, i miss my onion rings, i miss eating tons of grandma's scones, i miss white bread. i know it was an unhealthy relationship that i had with food, and that i am healthier now than i have been in years, but sometimes i miss being able to go through a drive-thru and order whatever i wanted. don't get me wrong, i love the weight loss (although i hate shopping- so buying new clothes is not on the "pro" side of the list), but my social life...with my family and especially with my friends was so centered on eating that i feel something is missing. if we were other people we could go out for coffee or drinks after an activity to hang out and talk but we aren't, so i'm stuck looking for a "healthy" choice option on the menu at sharis'/denny's (not an easy feat). sometimes when i feel the need to treat myself and give myself a little taste of the good stuff, i channel my inner alysha and just take little bits off people's plates which works cause i get some satisfaction from the good food and i save tons of money (i think alysha was on to something there). it's been a tough road giving up the life i had before. giving up something that i enjoyed and loved, but i know it's for the best, and one day when i am as skinny as well....most of my relatives...i will be happy i did this. if only grandma's scones, breads, and pies weren't so tempting.....oh the holidays are going to be rough.