Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I sure am glad it's raining, cause no one can see your teardrops in the rain...

I'm in a complete rut.

I hate my hair
I hate my clothes
I hate the same meals that I make
I hate spending most nights alone
I hate being at work with the drama
I hate having no money

I need...something.

It was pointed out to me recently that I never laugh much anymore. I giggle, or say "that's funny", but a good, loud, from the belly laugh has been few and far between. I miss laughing.

I haven't worked out in forever. I have no motivation. I am too tired, too lazy, too depressed...who knows. But I can't seem to get myself out of bed.
The worse part is I can't stop eating...well munching really...and snacking on nothing healthy or "good for me", so now the weight is coming on, which doesn't help the sadness and depression. It's a vicious cycle.
I hate my body.

I don't know what it is that I need exactly.....hopefully I'll figure it out soon.


sorry for the depressing truth bombs...

10 comments:

Jill said...

Hang in there Angie.

Earl Family said...

I am so sorry. I go through what I call, "the blues", every January. I hope you can make it through them as well.

BTW. I think you look great.

melanie said...

So do I need to be bringing anything different on Fri? It's so easy to get down and once you're there it's so much harder to get back up. Let's just say, I'm feelin ya on all levels! Can't wait to see a familiar face in a couple days. Hang tight. :)

Kimmy said...

There's no doubt this time of year is rough. I'm sorry you're feeling so down. It's not a fun or comfortable place to be. I'm here for you when you need me. :)

Go spend money...that's what Aaron and I do when we're depressed about having no money. Haha. It doesn't work very well, but it sure is exciting for a minute!!

Kacey Nielsen said...

Sounds to me like someone needs a little Vegas vacation. Find yourself a cheap Allegiant air flight, bring Qiana, you have a free place to stay, we will let babies play in the fabulous 60 degree weather, catch a few of the fabulous (ok stretching that a little) free show deals I get, maybe make a little appearance on Lets make a deal... I am telling you there are good times to be had!

There is nothing like too much Kacey time to make anyone really grateful to be home :)

Really, offer is on the table!

Annie said...

I'm feeling the same way, so today I rearranged all the furniture in my house. It made me a little happier.

Jess said...

Maybe some "you" time?? can I tend Q while you go see a funny movie?? Hang in there, what you're feeling is the worst!

Samantha said...

Oh Angie. Sorry you aren't feeling good. I have felt that very same way so many times. Maybe a haircut will make you feel better? That's always kind of fun. Hope you get out of your rut. Heaven knows we love the Angie laugh.

Myca said...

Angie...I love you. And I think you are beautiful. I wish there was something I could do or say to help you out of your rut. Hang in there...

dirty>south said...

Hey sounds like you got a case of the Januarys. Hang in there. I get this way too about this time of year. We need to get together soon.