I'm in a complete rut.
I hate my hair
I hate my clothes
I hate the same meals that I make
I hate spending most nights alone
I hate being at work with the drama
I hate having no money
It was pointed out to me recently that I never laugh much anymore. I giggle, or say "that's funny", but a good, loud, from the belly laugh has been few and far between. I miss laughing.
I haven't worked out in forever. I have no motivation. I am too tired, too lazy, too depressed...who knows. But I can't seem to get myself out of bed.
The worse part is I can't stop eating...well munching really...and snacking on nothing healthy or "good for me", so now the weight is coming on, which doesn't help the sadness and depression. It's a vicious cycle.
I hate my body.
I don't know what it is that I need exactly.....hopefully I'll figure it out soon.
sorry for the depressing truth bombs...