Wednesday, July 22, 2009

I'm leavin, never looking back again...

After much thought and consideration I have chosen to take this little blog private.

Today is my two year anniversary and instead of being satisfied with the job I have done, I feel like what I have put out has only been half of what I am. I have given you a watered down version of my thoughts, feelings, and happenings.

In essence I have served you the blog version of Pepsi Clear..and we all know what a bad idea that was.

A friend of mine recently started a blog full of blatant honesty and unapologetic opinions...I admire that. That is what I want. Unfortunately I do not feel comfortable enough to do that freely in this current setting. I have held back out of fear. If this blog is really meant to be my "journal" I want to be completely honest with my current and future self about my life and my thoughts. I don't want to look back on my blog books and feel cheated. I want to feel safe enough to voice my thoughts. safe enough to journal my life events. safe enough to be ME.

There is this scene in the movie "Old School" where Frank (Will Ferrell) and his wife go to counseling, and the doctor explains:

Therapist: Frank, this is a safe place. A place where we can feel free sharing our feelings. Think of my office as a nest in a tree of trust and understanding. We can say anything here.

Frank goes on to share openly his real thoughts and suddenly both his wife and the counselor stare at him with judgmental eyes... Frank stops mid sentence...

Frank: ... You know, and uh, and I started feeling.....what? what I thought we were in the trust tree in the nest, were we not?


Well I am figuratively "stopping mid-sentence" of my blog. I want to create a true "nest in a tree of trust and understanding", but have instead created a blog of half truths and edits. Going private will allow me the freedom I need to be ME.

I thank you all for reading my posts up until now, and hopefully we will continue to keep in touch in other ways.

8 comments:

Andrea said...

Good for you!

Kimmy said...

Love ya.

Douglas and Connie Jones Earl said...

keep it coming. d

Stephanie Hale said...

Thanks so much for including me Angie--I think you are the best and I love hearing about your life and your sweet girl! I think it's great to be REAL and it's the best way to grow as a person inside and out! Keep it up--BTW you make me laugh too!

Piper said...

tell it like it is

Lizzie Ann said...

Keep us all posted about your life, your adorable little girl, and about YOU! Love ya!

Crisdee said...

it's your blog and you cry if you want to... I actually agree with you and I might do the same thing sometime... it's your blog and your feelings and should be able to write how you are feeling without being scared of being judged... good call!! thanks for letting me be a part of your adventures! :)

Brianne said...

Thanks for including me on your blog. I love to hear your opinions!